to anybody who really follows this! it has been way too long since a post. but honestly, its actually better that i havent written because my posts would have been very pessimistic. you see, i went through a really lousy span of time where nothing made sense, as most do, and couldnt shake it. i practically hid in my apartment and felt like i was sinking. i didnt find solace in creating work, felt inadequate in my classes, and felt very much alone. it was a rough time, but with help from a councillor, a few close friends here, making some decisions about next year, and getting a MUCH NEEDED visit from some friends at home,   life is good again. it feels amazing to remember how to be happy and truly smile at a sunny day. the weather is shifting here and everything is bright and warm, the trees are all blooming and the rain is replaced with showers of flower petals. classes are winding down and although finals are hectic, they dont feel overbearing the way the beginning of the semester did. i can finally breathe. we learned how to do poloroid lifts and transfers today. i highly recommend taking Surface Altered Photography. its a fantastic class. plus the teacher keeps threatening to retire… then again shes been threatening to retire for years now. regardless, take the class. its stuff you wont learn anywhere else.